I do not know what to do, anymore. I thought I did at one point, but everything seems jumbled together and spread apart all at once. I’m losing my mind and not in a good way.

I was so certain that I could run away from everything and take up a new identity amongst the forest sprites or woodland creatures. But every time I reach that precipice of the decision, something pulls me back or pushes me away from the edge. I know I don’t want to be here, but apparently I’m not allowed to be anywhere else.

I want to live in a “FAIRYTALE,” and literally have everything I’ve ever wanted, but the further I get into that story, the more I understand how unrealistic that dream might be for me. There’s no available space. I’m not the Prince Charming. I’m barely the “Apple,” at this point. I’ll never see the Princess.

I have no idea what to do.

But just like every other day, I’ll smile and play the part, like nothings wrong.